No. I haven't scrapped them. I am just having a tough time focusing today. I think blowing that interview yesterday really affected me today. And then this bill and she won't let me come home to help pay off this bill and get a job. Its just getting to me today.

It really gets to me that I can't reason with her. I have always been able to reason with her in the past and now I can't reason with her on anything at all.

She is so against me at every level. And I am not against her.

But anything I say or do comes off as selflove to her. My friend pointed out that generally when someone accuses you of something its because they see that very same thing inside them.

And I think that is true. Right now what she is doing is self love. So she accuses me of it for wanting our marriage to be fixed and wanting to be back with my kids and her.

It isn't rational.

Me 36, W 37
M: 08/02/97
D13, D9
1st Bomb 02/08
Reconciled 04/08
2nd Bomb: 09/08
W filed for D 02/04/09
Separated 03/09
D dismissed 06/09/09
Still separated...