Weirdest thing again....tonight she's showing me ads for new cars, and we are talking about the possiblities of trading a car for something nicer that she would like. Besides the fact that we can't afford a new car right now cause I got layedoff, I don't really expect a spouse to be talking about buying a new car together if she is wanted to separate. I don't know what she is thinking. Even when I was in Vegas for the past 4 days, I'd call home and she would just say hi and then tell my son that daddy is calling and put him on instead of talking to me. And when I called her to say that my flight was delayed so she wouldnt' worry since I wouldn't get home till really late , her response was just 'Oh...well you have the car there so you'll be fine.", and that was it. So within a day, she goes from the mindset of 'I dont' really care about you enough to even really spend time talking to you still' to maybe looking for us to buy something that you would think you would only do if you were thinking you would still be with this person in the future. If I didn't want to be with someone, I dont' think I'd even want to buy a sandwich together.
And this is all after my 4days in Vegas this past weekend where when I call home, she just says hi and passes the phone to my son like she didnt' even care to talk to me at all. I took it as she didnt' really want to talk to me, but oh well...I kinda figured that anyway. And I called home Sun night to say my flight was delayed so she wouldnt worry, and the response was just 'well you have the car at the lot so you'll be ok'. And that was pretty much 99% of the conversation.
This stuff is why I'm so confused these days.
But I'm trying to focus on the gameplan. I didnt' really talk about my trip till she asked alittle bit about it. And then mostly just said that was happens in vegas, stays in vegas. So she doesnt' really know what I did there at all. But she did mention that it sounds like I had fun...which I did...but coulda been better though. Even one of my friends who I did get to talk to a little about the sitch did mention he could tell something had me preoccupied for the first couple days, and I couldn't seem to want to let loose till I had some drinks in me.
