Seperated But Living Together

[2gthrButApart]

I hate feeling this confused and lonely with no one to turn to. I can't talk to family and friends this is the only place I can vent. I've never been comfortable spilling my biz to ppl I know. This place is comforting but I can't help feel like I kinda get ignored sometimes b/c things in my M have become awkward and we are in a weird limbo. I don't know if I'm over-analyzing any of these actions that happen, or if they truly mean "something".


Today's one of "those days". I REALLY have to watch myself. Since SIL found BIL cheating, I tend to start questioning our situations then I kind of want to interogate him and I end up catching a nasty attitude with him b/c I feel like if his friends and family do it then he must be too. I never found anything stating he's ever done something like that but then the stupid lil' voice in my head says what if he's just extremely slick and careful and knows how NOT to get caught. Then I tend to want to snoop and become insecure and jealous and I hate the anxiety that puts me thru. Ugh...I have to be cool 2day. The cheating is their sitch not ours. Things have been cool btwn us.