Hi AJ, I just felt like these emails were written by someone in love, or really in pursuit of someone. It hurt. I won't lie. But I do have to let it all go. I changed email addresses to avoid that crap. I don't want to fight with him. When I was laying into him and he was taking it like a man, I must admit, I asked if he came back and we started to ML again was only because ex-OW cut him off. He said no. I wanted to come back and see what was still there. That was good. Then we got into another fight today, because of ANOTHER email. Hence, the new email address and old one is now dead as road kill. We'll see. I just need to detach now for my SANITY. I can't deal with these crazy people and their child-like behavior. But that's unfair to children to say that. I don't recall being that nutty ever. Aj you are right. I need to treat him like a friend. I need to forget that stupid girl and move one with my life. I hope he comes with me.....or so I think. There have been more moments this weekend than ever before where I thought "Screw it. I can do better than this crap and this treatment." But I do need to be more grateful for the apology. That was huge, you're right. I will acknowledge that to him. Today when we were fighting again, he said "This marriage can't be saved." Oddly enough, I wanted to laugh and tell him to blow it out his pie hole. Today, it didn't bug me to hear it. I was just "Whatever." I didn't say that, I just ignored it. I am not going to bother with this. I am going to be the person I would want to date...if I was into that kind of thing. Just kidding, you know what I mean. Yes, I'm going to be the fabulous woman I know that I am. Thank God for you and my girlfriend/roommate AJ. I really don't look that good in pinstripes or straight jackets. Alright, detach. No more ex-OW. No more arguements. Fun, tennis, exercising, yoga-doing, friend-hanging-out-with, wonderful-mommy-of-the-year me ONLY. Super Me! I wish I could call you!
