Robx - your post WAS inspiring. If I hadn't given everything in me for almost 3 years, it would probably inspire me.
But, at some point, there is a balance between reality and hope. I'm the most optimistic person you'll ever meet - glass COMPLETELY full kind of guy. But, I'm dragging my kids through an affair now.
They know I love W, W knows I love her - they know what I've done, and who I've become. If W is going to reject that, then I don't need to be with her, and my kids need to know the boundaries as well.
Spiritually, I have given God COMPLETE permission over my life. So, I'm going to move forward in a reasonable, normal manner, and if God stops me at any point, I will slam the brakes like nobody's business!
