My first step out of Newcomers

[Can it work]

Hi Stacy

Yeah I discussed this with my DB coach and discovered we have Mother's Day a lot earlier in the UK. I got a plaster cast of Wee Man's hand, one of his foot, and a lovely photo of him and put it in a lovely triple concertina frame. I then let him scribble all over the card I got her so it had a personal touch. Enthusiastic is one word I would definitely not use to describe her reaction. I guess a hangover dulls emotions though.

I don't attend church Stacy. It's not the same sort of community thing as I know it to be in the US. If I started going to church here I'd probably be the only one under 70 in attendance. I'm not a particularly religious person but I do have my beliefs and I even pray on occasion. If there was more of a community spirit involved in the church I would definitely go there for more support. It's a shame there isn't really.

I know that the main point of DBing is saving myself. In general I believe I am growing and improving. I'm not yet able to detatch fully from my marriage though. I am trying but it's still an anchor to me that keeps pulling me back. Right now I still think I need it to work. I'm sure that will pass with time but right now I can't seem to help it. Maybe it's because no matter how hard I try, I can't seem to find anything in my life that even comes close to replacing the feeling of completeness my marriage gave me. Yes, I've found new pursuits and hobbies but there's still a gaping void left behind from losing my W and the greater percentage of time with Wee Man. I'm at a loss as to how to fill that void. The cold hard fact is that nothing can match it.

I have to go now and get ready because I'm taking my auditor out to dinner tonight. My boss seems to think it will sweeten him up a bit!! We'll see. I'm not really in the mood but I suppose I better make the best of it and enjoy my free meal. Hopefully I'll pop on again later if I'm not too late home.

Kev