Hay confusedinpa, first off, I am so glad to hear you had a great weekend with the boys. Napping with your son, does it get any better than that.
Like I have said in another post, I am way to sucky at this to give you any good advice except to say, follow the advice of the DB Vets on here. They are looking out for you.
Now I can't say I am doing as they say either, but I am doing my best. I have failed a lot in the last week. Just read my posts and responses and see. By the way, if you are not already doing so, read other peoples posts you has given great insight because your 'actually detached' when you read them. I have begun to read yours religiously. It's funny I think we handle and view some things in a similar way.
In your sitch, I can't say how fortunate you are that you still have physical contact the your wife. As in my case we haven't made love since december and we no longer hug or kiss. I stopped on the advice of those on this sight. I agonize over it daily!
Like you I don't know wether to go dark or just continue my 180. I never know what is working and I don't want her to think anything negative.
Well if you can put as much of what your DB coach tells you on here so that I may pirate some of the advice,LOL. I can't afford it otherwise I would spend every penny I had on it.
Hold your head high, your a strong man and a great father.