Ok people once again thank you and I hear what you are saying.
So yesterday in addition to everything else she told me a couple of new things.
1. She was going to start looking into what the divorce process is all about, most likely will talk to a lawyer.
2. She said that the way she would like things to be is that she and the boys move into a smaller house and I move into a studio apt. She said then we can co-parent the boys. Meaning she would like it if the boys would not have to be shuffled back and forth between my studio and the house. She went on to say that means a few days a week I would say in the studio and a few days a week she would stay in the studio.-------> is this a good thing?
She elaborated on where she stands at this point.--> she said that as time goes on she is more and more convinced that the only way she can truly take care of herself is if we divorce, separation is no longer an option. She says that she needs to process the past about the hurt I caused her and why she would let it happen. the only way she feels that she can truly do this is if we are divorced because otherwise there is to much ambiguity.