Hi Glam, I am sorry to read your post and a little suprized but you know we all support whatever decision you make. You alone know when enough is enough and you have been amazingly patient for years. You haven't let anyone down so stop those thoughts right now. Life is short and I have always maintained Life is a gift from God and not to be wasted or squandered. Sometimes we do have to lift our head out of the sand and face reality. H can always catch you up if and when he decides, right now he is living his life,so live yours to the fullest whic can only truly be done when we let go. All the very best to you, you deserve so much more than crumbs.