{{{{V}}}} UGH..I didn't think about new sounds..LOL..that will be something I will have to deal with at the end of my year (March of next year)!
I think that you did all of that yourself is SO fantastic and amazing and not at all surprising, knowing your strength and fortitude that shows thru on the board I sometimes wish I would have just moved out of my house too to get the "new", but I will definitely be ready cause it's not really my "home" now, just a house..I'm glad you have a new HOME
I love that new anything is possible outlook and it REALLY is and, you are right, interesting how sometimes our world has to be shaken like a snow globe to figure that out!
Hugs sweetie!
Tawnya
Me:39 H:40 D18/S12 M20/T21 Bomb 10/11/08 One Two Three Four
Hey V, did you figure out the chirping yet ? It could be a cricket, which would be good luck.
M 19 years, MC for 8 months, DB'd for 8 months 4 kids; 18, 15, 14, & 10 I was never meant to be a doormat. It took me years of therapy to become assertive enough to stop his abuse.
I would take some good luck, but I am afraid it is not a cricket. The good news...the twenty-four hour a day construction on the building just opposite mine completely obliterates the chirping!
The new place is great. Still not feeling quite like home yet, but my old place had stopped feeling like home. It will just take time.
I have been reminding myself of the importance of living in the present moment and just accepting what is happening and what I am feeling right now. I had forgotten, bad V, how much comfort there is to be found by staying in the present moment.
I have been running, a lot, and keeping busy with new friends. I have also been spending some time wandering around my new neighborhood discovering what is there.
{{{V}}} Well I hope it feels like home soon, cause I'm all ready for an invite over to check it out
I really like your thought processes and I have tried, I think thanks to you, to try to deal with what I'm feeling, tho I too can be pulled to thinking about the past or the future rather than staying in the moment!
Found anything good in your new neighborhood?
Tawnya
Me:39 H:40 D18/S12 M20/T21 Bomb 10/11/08 One Two Three Four
((V)) 24 hour a day construction ?? There ought to be laws against that.
M 19 years, MC for 8 months, DB'd for 8 months 4 kids; 18, 15, 14, & 10 I was never meant to be a doormat. It took me years of therapy to become assertive enough to stop his abuse.
There are laws against that - but in this economy, I am pretty certain that if I make a complaint and get them shut down, the poor guys doing the crappy overnight construction will get laid off. Then I think about their kids...
I can just sleep with ear plugs. Plus, I am serious about it obliterating the chirping, that really is a plus!
V.
p.s. the time stamp of your post is my birthday. I read somewhere that one gets to make a wish when one sees one's birthday on a clock. I have decided posting time on DB counts. So I am now making a wish...
I just finished posting to, okay probably hijacking Carlos's thread (Healthydad) where he was talking about memories. His words resonated and made me want to talk about staying focused on the present. I alluded to somethig happening to me today and think I should share it here.
Sometimes, it is just not fun to be in the present. So not fun that one would rather be anywhere else. I am approaching the eight-month mark with Z and we are in the midst of being friends and dividing our assets. I really thought I could tough my way through the money part and through sheer determination, not feel anything. Seldom right and wrong again.
It hit me this morning in the middle of numerous emails between attorneys and Z and me that the money talks are disgusting, truly disgusting. What was once a very beautiful thing between two people has died and it is to be mourned and grieved as the loss that it is. Talking about division of assets and having attorneys squabbling over one hundred dollars is like standing at a funeral over the coffin of a loved one and yelling back and forth that he may not have been well-enough insured. It is gross and distasteful. I understand that it has to be completed. It is just that I was so naive to think I was tough enough to not feel pain from it.
I am really strong - so much stronger than I ever realized. But, like I have posted here and to friends, strength and pain, sadness and tears are not mutually exclusive. So it was naive of me to think that strength, without feeling the sadness was going to be all it took to see me through this part of the process.
My friends, I am tired. That is the biggest part of my problem, I think. I am a rip-the-band-aid-off kind of a woman and this slow death is agony. I am tired of feeling sadness and having it crop up unexpectedly (perhaps a negative effect of no expectations?), I am tired of mourning and grieving and loss. But, I know this cannot be rushed, it must pass as it will in the time it takes.
This is my very long-winded way of cautioning myself, and anyone who cares to read this with me, not to take one's focus off of the present, even when the present contains some things or feelings one would rather it did not. Better to acknowledge those things and face them, honestly, and let them go than to deny them their due, lest they grow and linger.
So, part of my present is sadness and I am feeling it and acknowledging it. I also plan to focus on some of the good and happy things in my present, because there are those things, too. Perspective is the key, I think.
I sometimes wish I would have just moved out of my house too to get the "new", but I will definitely be ready cause it's not really my "home" now, just a house..I'm glad you have a new HOME 
