Just missing you guys a little!

[Amy M]

Thanks (((((mC))))), (((((polly))))) and (((((pearl)))))!

I'm just so tired of this. I didn't sleep a wink, and I have so much to do at work today...so much. And, for the first time in months I'm going to work with my eyes all puffy cause of HIM!!!!

But, for what it's worth, I did sort of take the "high road" once again. I sent the following email before I went to bed last night...

H,
I won't sleep if I don't make an attempt to apologize for my behavior tonight.

I'm sorry that I acted so inappropriately. I'm sorry that I called you names and said hateful things.

I should also say that while I'm sorry for the way I handled things...and I truly am...I'm not apologizing for the anger I felt. I still believe that what you did was disrespectful, and I honestly thought that we were past that stage and had come to a point that we would both attempt to be respectful of each other as things relate to the boys. I've been trying very hard to do that from my side of things. I wish that you would rethink your actions and try hard to do the same in return.
Amy


I'm just gonna get his settlement markups to the attorney today and ask her to hurry, hurry, hurry with the paperwork. I want to be divorced yesterday.

I also am thinking that I might talk to S7 about the fact that his dad has a girlfriend. I don't intend to go into detail about when he got the girlfriend, and if asked, I'll just tell him I don't know. But, H won't talk to him about it, and S7 is so smart. I thought that if I talked to him that might open the door for him to share his feelings if he wants to. And, since he's so obviously trying to protect me (he keeps implying that he'll be okay if I get a boyfriend, etc.), I thought he might get some relief from knowing that I already know. He won't bring it up for fear of upsetting me. I'm not sure that's the best way to handle it, but, it won't be long until they have to start staying there. I want them to be properly prepared...and knowing H, he'll just take them over there with no discussion at all. Because afterall, it's what's best for them.

I'm getting up out of this chair, going to work, and going to pray for the ability to focus on that today. Go, Amy, Go!!

(((((Tawnya))))) and (((((SMW))))), thanks much for your support last night. I'm so thankful to have folks to call when a mini-crisis occurs. Love you both very, very much!!!

Love to all!!
Amy