Wanted to give everyone an update. Well, things have been real good lately. My wife told me this week that she wants to make things work between us and that she would like for us to get remarried in about a year and a half or so. Words cannot describe how happy this makes me. I know that this process is far from over (although the process never truly ends), but I like how things are beginning to turning out.
Right now my wife and I have a lot of credit card debt, so we made a commitment to pay all our debts off in about a year and a half as we don't want that burden going into the marriage. Fortunately, my new job will allow us to do just that - although I will have to live a little tighter to make that happen. I really want to make sure that we can get a house when we get remarried and I know that that is real important to her -especially for our daughter.
I do admit, I am a little nervous - as the restoration of our marriage means the world to me. I so much want my wife and daughter to be happy. Yesterday she helped me move into my new office and it felt so good to hang our family portrait. Yesterday was also our first date I guess you can say as we dropped off our daughter at a friend's and went out for dinner. It was nice and she was very flirtatious.
I wish I could just hold her and tell her that I love her - but I know we are not quite there yet but at least I know we are moving towards that place. Last week my wife needed a lot of reassurance that I wasn't going to leave her and I kept telling her that that person is dead and that I am never letting go of our family again. This week she started to drop hints about the type of wedding she wants and overall we just seem more connected. What is really nice is that we've been falling asleep on the phone together and although it may seem corny, it means a lot to me that we do.
A few weeks ago I wasn't sure if I should start being romantic, but now I am sure that I need to start. Well, I will post more later, but wanted to share the good news.
