It seems part of the pain of these break-ups is the publicity that goes with them. The small community factor adds to the distress and affects our own self perceptions.
I think you can be proud of yourself for trying to reconcile and also for not behaving badly...
I remember reading what you were typing last year or whenever it was all happening and admiring you for your own self respect and personal strength. I bet others in your real world notice that too. I am supposing some think grief is contagious.
