What's next???? The adventure continues!!!

[AFWAW]

I would but for my daughter. I just wish she would make up her mind. It's just so up and down. I did kind of make myself not available and that led to our groundbreaking moment of I still love and I don't want a divorce and our subsequent date, etc to today's I don't want to come home at this point. So, I guess to keep my heart from getting broken again and again and to avoid riding the roller coaster maybe I should be unavailable to her and just let me daughter answer the phone from now on. I know I'll eventually have to talk with her, it's just so damn infuriating that she is doing this with the intention of being alone but she still wants to call me and give me the low down on her days to include the noisy neighbors(duh, you moved from a house to an apartment, you're going to have noisy people right next to you), dogs barking and crying to the positives of how easy it is to clean. I am not a yo-yo yet I keep letting myself become one. So, I will do my best to try to go dark--maybe that will work. At the very least, if I'm not exposed to her then I won't have another emotional breakdown.