Well, we talked this afternoon and it felt too pressured for me. I finally admitted something to myself and then made it clear to H - that part of me does not want to work on the M. I find H to be too difficult to talk to and reason with - on many things. He is too overwhelmed to take care of himself let alone help someone else out. H says he wants to change, and I told him to do so because it will only benefit him in the long run. I guess I am more surprised than he is about my view at this point on the M.
I will keep my mind open to the changes I see and hear him making - and I do see them. But my body tenses up which tells me that now is not the time.
Will keep you posted with updates. Don't know what I am going to do at this point. I am keeping my options open too.
