Hay Ali - congrats on the dissertation submission! A great achievement!
Well...the bit above was tongue in cheek!!!
When I look at things it seems amazing that we have managed to get from the point where W could not bear to breathe the same air as me to the point where she didn't recoil from a kiss and is willing to coparent so amicably.
I guess I'm afraid of hearing the latter sentiment...and perhaps me asking might push her to that even if there was a doubt. I do know she's pretty keen on me not harbouring any false hopes - there is nothing in her actions which could possibly lead me to conclude that she has any intention of moving in my direction.
When I first came here I was awed by the story by David on the front of this site - and thought, hoped I would be able to do the same. Actually, I still think that approach would be my best chance but not sure I can steel myself for the length of time and pain along the way - that would entail.
On the other hand, I am reminded today about the positives out of this situation...I have taken my son for another game of badminton - and I might have said this before, but he's going to be a great player!!! Taken him to a 7th birthday party, with a present and card I bought and we wrapped, bought him new school shirts and trousers and taken up the trousers to fit him, then we sorted out swingball and played in the garden for an hour, then I made him tea and we watched the TimeTeam on TV. Now - just enough time for him to beat me at Slapjack again before bathtime and story...I have loved, really loved the whole day!!! Even the trousers!
If W and I were still together I doubt if my Sunday would have been anything like that.
So...just need to sit tight for the time being while I sort myself out...and not do anything too hasty or rash...
