My first step out of Newcomers

[Can it work]

Hi PM. Wee Man is great but I'm not. I don't know what's up with me this weekend. It's like emotionally I've gone back to square one. I'm getting absolutely no support at home about the idea of getting my marriage back. Absolutely nobody believes that my W is ever going to come back. How am I supposed to keep dealing with that? Every time I think I'm making any small kinds of progress, my own family and friends keep knocking me down. I'll be honest that I'm completely struggling to deal with this now.

It never helped when I took Wee Man back to my W this evening. I was hoping for a pleasant chat with her and for Wee Man to give her her mother's day present. When I arrived she had a house full of her hungover friends who had been there all day after they'd all been out last night. I told her I needed a word and we went through to the kitchen. I then told her that I'd prefer to have Wee Man on Friday and Saturday nights when I have him for the weekend. She said she'll think about it. She then asked me if I'd heard any of the rumours that are going around about her. Truth is I haven't and I really don't want to.

I really thought I was beginning to detatch well but today has put doubts in my mind. I have nobody here at all to talk to about this and it's making it difficult for me to get it off my chest.

Hopefully this feeling is going to pass again tomorrow because I really don't think I can go on like this. It's ripping me up inside. I know it's going to get easier but sometimes it's really really hard to believe that.

Kev