H is away on business. Our C says that H is the type of person who craves excitment. So he is now visiting a new city. He called up kids today on speaker phone and told us all the new and wonderful things he is doing and seeing. I can tell he is really enjoying himself. So I think to myself, we have been together 17 years. How can I keep up this kind level of excitment in the M? I can't. So we are doomed, or more specifically he is doomed to look for new relationships when old ones stagnate. He is cognitive of this trait in himself (the excitment part, not the looking for new love part) but has convinced himself that it is different with OW. I wonder if a miracle happens and he decides to try on our M, how I can keep the excitment going. Maybe this really won't work after all because it would be so much work and I would constantly be wondering, am I good enough, am I making it exciting enough for him, is he happy with me, will he look for someone else?
Me:39 H:40 S:9 D:7 First Bomb ONS:June 07 Second Bomb OW: March 08 Separated: March 08 M:15 yrs T:18 yrs H deep into A with OW Achieved ACCEPTANCE May 30, 09
