What's next???? The adventure continues!!!

[AFWAW]

Couldn't sleep much last night as I kept thinking about the wife. Kept going over in my mind interactions on the date and from the phone call. A couple of things stuck in my mind that lead me to believe she is still struggling with what to do. During our phone call, I had mentioned that my D and I had put down some mulch and she commented that she would have loved for me to help her put some down in the previous years? Ok, I can remember one year when she did the landscaping and the rest of the years I helped. That really doesn't matter. What matters is she's still looking at negative stuff from our past and using it to support what she is doing. I didn't argue with her, I just said I know when she mentioned it. I really hope she can get past this negative stuff from the past and that she doesn't enjoy living alone. I really, really am nervous about that. She has made numerous comments about how simple things are with regard to living alone. Laundry, cooking, cleaning are all aparently a snap. That coupled with the ability to watch tv at 2am if you want to are also a plus for her?

I really hope that she can get past this stage in her life fairly quickly and decides to come home. This is really tearing me up. I have never wanted something more or been more anxious in my life. The days are getting a little easier but I still think about her probably 95% of my day so I'm not as productive as I want to be. Anyway, keep your fingers crossed for me and keep me in your prayers, please!