Oh my, 32! I could be his mother. Thats not right!
Trapt, mind your elders - or else!
I'm a goof off. I always have been.
On a serious note though....
I have so much respect for everyone here. This place is full of some really great people who are all on a similar journey.
While different in ways, the feelings and emotions are the same. I have to say in the past two years I have felt like never before. From the sleepless nights, anxiety that felt like I had damn elephant sitting on my chest, crying until I had no tears left, worrying so much about my children. How will this change them, who would they have been??
That all has faded now. It's gone. It doesn't happen in a day or week or even month. It's slow.....but some how you go from being knocked flat on your back to rising back to your feet, taking the few first awkard steps into the unkown.
Before you know it your walking again, your smile returns. Things that used to trouble you seem so insignificant. You begin to appreciate everyone in your life so much more....Everyone.
Your confidence slowly returns. You really take an intrest so much more with the people in your life. You realize just how incredble the gift you have been given is.
You accept yourself for who you are, and others for who they are.
It's strange to reflect on who I was two years ago and how I viewed and lived life. This whole experience molds you into someone better. Call me crazy (after reading this 40 page thread I'm sure you will anyway) I do not regret what has happened and I am looking forward to the future what ever that may be.
