Thank you. I need the lift from time to time. I have really been trying to distance myself from my H. I really don't want to be anywhere near him right now. It's just too painful. He knows I don't want to be near him, too. But, he's so busy I can't imagine it matters much. In-laws are here right now. It's hard to keep my distance because they need to see K. I have told them that I want our convo to be about us and k, not h, ow or their new baby. I just can't go there, right now. So far, they have been pretty good about it, except (obviously) for the occassional comment from MIL. She is very much like my H....she often says things that she doesn't realize hurt. I don't believe for one minute that she would ever hurt me or say something she knew would hurt. I just don't think she thinks about it before she speaks. Going there for dinner tonight. K isn't feeling well so we won't stay late. H still plans on having K tomorrow. MIL told him that she is sick, but he doesn't seem to care. I think it's a horrible idea to bring her to his house with that newborn. But, he wants K to meet her brother. What a crock of crap. He has this little fantasy family and it's all BS. How wonderful that K is going to have a bunch of half siblings and step sibblings .... she should have FULL siblings. Thanks H for thinking about that before you knocked up your gf who already has two children from a man that wouldn't marry her. What a clusterf***. Sorry, just venting. But, I guess OW has talked H into believing that, that is a normal family. Let's see she has half siblings from all over - her Mother was married 4 times - siblings from different fathers and her Dad...same thing. Whatever. Hopefully, some day K will have another sibling (from me) I can only wish it would be a full sibling that her father and I give her...but, do I really want to have another baby with this man. Or maybe, it won't be from him, but from another man who is a better father for our child and for K, too. Who knows where life is gonna take me now.


M 5yrs
1st baby-girl born 6/18/08
Bomb: 10/13/07 OW - I was 6wks Prego
H Moved in w/OW: 11/2/07
D Final 07/10
OW had his baby 3/17/09-so her
Me, now - happier than I ever was with him