Thanks Vick, Yes..it is a hard journey. And I am here for many reasons. Everyone here totally understands the ups and and downs of this journey and the emotional roller coaster it causes.
I can say I was here before for saving my marriage. I dont necessarily feel that is why I am here now.
Dont get me wrong..I love that man with my entire heart, and I know he love me..but I dont think its enough anymore.
I may have lost in the game of marriage..but he has lost his entire life.
What he has forced his children to learn about and the scars this will put on their childhood is horrific.
Everything we have worked all these years for..he is giving up..for a whore..someone that is just searching for anyone to take care of her.
They win..I am strong and I will survive.. My heart has room in it to fall in love with someone that will appreciate me for me!
Sandy, I wish you the best of luck. I'm proud of you. I so have felt that I need to move on but just hasn't as yet. Sometimes we need to make these decisions for ourselves and for your children. Good luck and you are definitely the winner.
Regardless of your decision to fight for your marriage or not, I suggest you contiune to post. Your emotions are peaked, you are entering into unfamiliar territory. Lots of issues with kids, finances, law, things people just don't think about until they have to.
There are a lot of good people here who have traveled ahead of you, I'm sure they will assist in any way they can.
I plan to keep posting..trust me ..I know I have been wishy washy also..but darn-it..love is not supposed to hurt and at what point do you throw in the towel?
I have been as loyal as loyal can be..if what I have to offer is not enough for him...it will be enough for someone else ..someday.
No one can tell you when to throw in the towel. For me, it was when I realized my love had left. I was able to go days without thinking of her, wondering and expecting something to happen. I DB'd for about 14 months.
To some, this may sound like a long time, too others it won't. It is one of the reasons, the timelines can't be predidcted or suggested.
Take heart that it will not be all fun for either of them and when their lives do implode , yuo will be miles through this process and will be able to sit back and smile.
..Now thats why I came back to this wonderful group....
Two opinions that I agree and respect...I can only move on when my heart is done and YES she is a needy whore!!
Polyanna thanks for the smile.
I will not say I am over him... He does have my heart. But, he doesnt have my mind..and my mind knows this is not good for the kids. One of us has to have their best interest at heart.
And seeing an irrational, sobbing, weak mother is not good. So... stronger woman is here!
Thats my song on my myspace page..stronger woman by Jewel.
I have plans to meet up with friends tonight..a little ME time!
Thats ok sandy. I like you am waiting for the day when their lives go belly up. I will not put my life on hold for that day and nor will I stoop to their level BUT I will be waiting .
Struggled quite a bit tonight...really missing hubby..not understanding how he can be doing this.
I just dont want to give up our life....
I want to start over..recommitt... He is still hoping OW will take him back.he thinks he loves her! But in the next breath he will tell me that...I know how he feels for me...
He wont open up..thats my punishment for sending his texts to OW..must have made them fight!
What sucks is I have been down this road and I know I should be moving on..yet I feel like I am leaving my soulmate..
