Just journaling:

W hasn't called for a few days, which isn't a real big deal. I guess I was feeling spoiled by all the attention of the last few weeks. I told my kids that they should also cut back on calling her unless they had something urgent to talk to her about. I feel somewhat bad about telling the kids to do that, but my S17 is in the habit of calling her every day and the last time he spoke to her he said that she seemed really distracted and short with him, which left him feeling snubbed. I think having everyone back off from contacting her for a bit might help.

I hear from my MIL that she has started taking her Praktikum, which is the equivalent of pre-school for working in a nursing home. She isn't being paid while she is doing this and supposedly it is going to take until September before she can work. There is no way with her current burn-rate that her money will last until then. I think her fantasy life will crash and burn long before it ever becomes self-sustaining, but we shall see.

I am learning which buttons not to push, though. I sent her an e-mail a few days ago where I just basically filled her in on what was going on around the house and included some pics from D12 dance recital. I also mentioned some of the stuff that we talked about in IC last week about her A. Her response was to delete her account on her social networking site. Hehe, that would be the third time that we've talked about the A and she got mad and deleted her account.

Either she is really in denial about the A, or that rabbit hole is deeper than I think it is. In fact, the whole cutting her arm thing came at the end of her vehement denial of the the A.

She is a big ball of crazy; so why do I love her so much?


Me40
WAW37
M18 T20
S18,14 D13
EA Bomb 6/08
Sep 11/20/08
Ret 08/09
Sep/Filed 11/09

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