Oops!!.......I think I've dropped the rope!!

[Silent Chrleader]

I know, Glam. I know. I actually felt like I was finally pretty detached. I don't know why his having a girlfriend hit me so hard. Maybe it's because of my GD. She's so very beautiful, and H has absolutely no feeling of wanting to see her. I hurt so much for my daughter. And I'm so embarassed and ashamed at the state of our family when I talk to my daughter's "in-laws". And I'm so angry at H for doing this! And it's so unfair for him to get away with it! And this is so not how I imagined we would become grandparents together. I know I need to stay detached!! And I'm so angry at myself for allowing him this power over me! I have so very much to be thankful for. It's HIM that's missing out on something very very precious!! Seeing our daughter finally coming into her own. Loosing the respect of his son. It's all his loss! And maybe tomorrow I will really feel that way, but not right now. Right now I'm angry and I hate him!! I really do!!