I've been kind of out of things lately but will try to catch up. It seems that you are still doing great and that makes me feel good. More than just good, it is wonderful. You have been one of the best suvival stories I can recall at the moment and I say that based on what is inside your heart, Amy. You did not allow the enemy to fill your heart with hatrred and bitterness and you made the decision that you would not be a slave to that type of mentallity the rest of your life. That takes so much strength that I don't know how a person who doesn't know the Lord could ever accomplish it. I am thrilled that the devil did not steal your sweet and kind ways and that he could not keep you from enjoying your life. Because of what you are accomplishing (b/c I know you have not reached the "finish line" yet) it is a tribute for all on this board to read about and draw strength from. You have shown people by your own example that it is possible to move forward in your life even when things did not turn out like you had hoped when you came here. God is still able to bless and to give much happiness.....which you are seeing that in your own life. Everyday can be an adventure on the journey we are taking, or it can be a terrible experience to endure.......but I think the decision is really up to us as to what kind of mental attitude we chose to take about it. In fact, I think our mental attitude is the secret to almost everything surrounding us in life. God gave us the option as to how we would respond or react toward whatever is thrown at us. If it is something we cannot change for the better (in our opinion) then we can decide to try to learn whatever we can from it in order to become a better/stronger person. Things are so hard to understand "why" they happen the way they do. We could go absolutely crazy trying to figure out the whys of everything that goes bad. The truth is......we may never know the "whys" of it. Actually we are wasting brain power and physical energy on trying to figure it all out. I know that there are a lot of things that are tough......really tough to accept, but I also know that my Heavenly Father does love you (and me) and I know He will do what is best and it is not our job to always "understand" everything about the whys and wherefores, but just to be sure we live in obedience to the Father and that we can rest in His love and know we will be fine.
We all are still on our personal journeys. I don't think any of us have "arrived" yet. (Whatever that means....LOL) Even mature Christians should be learning all the time and they should be enjoying life. That is why I am happy to see you enjoying your life in spite of all that has gone "wrong". God can take what the devil meant for evil and turn it around for good. That is what we find hard to see when we are blinded by our pain. If we had no problems, there would be no need for faith. That is why there will be no "faith" in Heaven b/c there will be no need for it. Won't that be great?
Well, look at me sitting here giving a "devotional"...again. I said most of that as much for myself as for you, sweetie. Even when we "know" all of this.....we still need to say it to ourselves or hear it again, so maybe that is what I'm doing.....saying it to myself.....so I hope you don't mind.
I really just meant to say that I am still so proud of you that I could burst. You still have some rough moments ahead, but you will come through it b/c you have the power within you......keep remembering that, sweetie.
Your post always uplife my heart.
Take care of you and those sweet babies.
Love, Sandi
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
