hi
another day in the life of the mlcer and LBS:

confronted H on him business stuff as we share this business
he exploded his rage has become over the top
during the first 2 years he was pleasant
while evwerything was still a secret his ow, living arrangements
I was the co- secret keeper
now I have done dim/quiet as much as possible when you share a business and kids together
H has become unstable and is having many outbursts
I saw H Credit card staement at the office..not pretty!
so H says
to the kids
Im not coming tonight,,This is routine when I confront him with any kind of reality
and
he sayd he cant come fridays anymore
his loss..I am ok with the exret time with the kids
they ra so difficult to deal with these WAS
I am having a hard time DB with him anymore
I feel like it is enabling him to prtetend all he did was OK
at the same time
my dimness/detachmnet and unavailability to H make him angrier toward me
and makes our R nonexsistant
but rith now, I need to back away
he is a sick man and i need space to let go and move on with my life
and I dont want to give him the satisfaction of the perfect wife or XW who still loves him despiyte his awful choices and secret life
I am praying for forgiveness..its may take some time
Thanks to all for respomnding//it really helps
peace
peace


married 14 years
H 42
bomb 2/07 IDLYA
D final 3 /09
M ow D ow