Being a newbie here I don't feel quite qualified to be giving advice but I would have to agree with kat. I would kill(ok maybe not literaly) for another chance. Even if the outcome was unknown!
One day at a time, you never know where it might lead!
Me:44 H:40 D:14 S:12 Bomb: 12/08 & 12/04 H moved out 2/09