WAW - Very confused and devestated - pt 5

[confusedinpa]

We met for lunch. I made some small talk. She wound up getting a nose bleed. I tried to help/comfort her a little. She asked if there was anything else I wanted to say

I said I didn't want to repeat myself (something she's been complaining about) as I think I said everything I wanted to say. I did wind up giving her the card. She cried a little. It was hard but I didn't try to comfort her. She could tell I was sad as well

Before she left I told her that I do love her and believe in the marriage but know that's not how she feels right now. I said I believe it can work, not the way it was but how it can be. I believe in my changes and will make them habits

She said right now she doesn't love me like a wife should do so she can't seeing staying married

I told her I finally understood a marriage is about loving each other enough to help/let them achieve what they want in life, even if its not what I want. I told her I would love to be on that path with her once she decides what she wants in life, if she wanted me to

But I feel that the best thing I can do to show her I love her is to not stop her froming doing what she wants, even though its not what I want

She thanked me and left crying

I was sad but didn't break down nor comforted her. I did feel sad for how confused she is. I do truly love her