I get asked what I want alot, and it feels like a loaded question.
Honestly half of me wants my M and the other half thinks that it will never work anyway and that I could find someone else some day that could actually make me happy. He has made no effort or said anything to indicate he has changed his mind, so to me it seems impossible in that way.
Its hard to say, I go back and forth with it alot. These last 2 months I have just planned on moving on, and started envisioning my new life, trying to figure out where to get an apartment, etc... then he comes back around again and does something to make me think there might be a chance. I guess I have not given up on us completely, but I dont feel like I am in it 100% anymore. He has continued to push and push me out of his life so I started adapting to that.
I dont know if any of that makes sense, but its how I feel.
