Thank you for checking in on me. I'm on a bit of a rollercoaster of emotion at the moment but trying to keep it as smooth as possible. For some reason this has hurt me more than finding out about ow - or maybe it is the combination.
So the last time I posted I was go, go, go. Yesterday I dropped and was exhausted and emotional. It all felt too over-whelming and today I seem to be powered up with anger. There is sooooo much I want to rant at him so I am going to write him a massive long letter and hit the delete button. Dignity is the key here!
I have texted him and asked him to meet me next week. A final attempt at seeing if I can get some communication happening about this. My tactic in the meeting will be to state what I know and then silence. Before he has sat at me in silence and I have filled it. This time, silence. We can sit there in silence for hours if he likes, I'm perfectly ok with silence now.
I'm not sure she is a stepping stone Al, he has made his bed I think he hasn't got the guts or inclination to get out of it. He can sleep in it till it goes rotten as it will. He's 26, plenty of time for karma to take its course. I have no doubt he will find himself in this position again. She doesn't realise she was just novel, not special.
Mishka, thank you for encouraging words, they really meant a lot.
naej, I'm certainly roaring today. Can you hear it??? You are right though the emotional cost is great. Although this is taking a long time to sort out I have no doubt I will come out of it with the better deal. When I am free of the house I am going to make the most of life and I can't wait for the adventure, although it is a little scary!
You are right though the emotional cost is great. Although this is taking a long time to sort out I have no doubt I will come out of it with the better deal. When I am free of the house I am going to make the most of life and I can't wait for the adventure, although it is a little scary! 