This may not go well.. but we will see what happens.
I am sure you don't like me posting here. I understand why.
I am not here to argue with you.
"I've also thought of a thread for people dealing with alcoholism."
This would be a good thing. Do I think it should be in Newcomers.. no. It would get more traffic "here" but I think the discussion may wander some.
"I have nothing really to say atm."
One thing I have learned "here" is that people say the best things when they.. just don't know what to say.
Let me prove my point.
"Things are still in hearts and flowers stage."
Here you are setting the stage for what you are about to say. To me.. what follows that statement will be important.
"I hate the make-up stage more than the drunken outrage part."
And that is what is really important. To a point.. you know that this is going to come. I would label this.. More of the Same. Right here is the "fight" you "fight". Right here you could change things. The question it leaves me with is.. what do you really want? Do you want this marriage to work or not? I will assume from here on out.. that just because you posted here.. you want it to work. Please correct me if I am wrong. I am 100% OK with that.
"I'm sick and tired of not being allowed to have feelings."
Those words right there "made" me post tonight.
The main reason it did was because I "see" you.. "fighting" you.
No one ever told you not to have feelings.
The feelings you have are normal. It will be your reaction that takes you somewhere.
I am still left with that burning question.. what do you want?
"I plan on seeing a lawyer next week to just ask some questions and see what's what. I also plan on speaking to my MIL about all of this."
If this does not point out how "on the fence" you are.. I am a retard and am wasting my time.
"H has planned for us to go out of town for the weekend, just the two of us. Should be fine. He's usually fine away from the house. Somehow being at home makes him much much worse."
Read what you just wrote.. and really think about it.
"I took S12 for a drive the other night and explained to him that his dad is an alcoholic."
I don't know that I can "cheer" this thought on. To me as strong as you come across this was a "weak" moment for you.
"Well, that's it. Nothing really positive. Just trying to figure out what to do next."
Yes.. I left some stuff out. I call it fluff.
The path that you are on.. just does not lead anywhere.
So again.. the theme has not changed.
What do you want?
Remember.. you can answer the question.. and I will hold you to it.
or
Just tell me to go away.
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
