I've also thought of a thread for people dealing with alcoholism.
I have nothing really to say atm. Things are still in hearts and flowers stage. I hate the make-up stage more than the drunken outrage part. I'm sick and tired of not being allowed to have feelings.
I plan on seeing a lawyer next week to just ask some questions and see what's what. I also plan on speaking to my MIL about all of this.
H has planned for us to go out of town for the weekend, just the two of us. Should be fine. He's usually fine away from the house. Somehow being at home makes him much much worse.
I took S12 for a drive the other night and explained to him that his dad is an alcoholic. He seemed kind of relieved really...I could see some weight lift off his shoulders like...Oh...so that's what's wrong. He says, well I know Dad drinks vodka every night...like that's totally normal.
Ugh. It just totally SUCKS that no matter what...my kids have to suffer because of all this. They either suffer in the midst of this nutty dysfunctional behavior, or they have to suffer through a divorce. That I am likely to get all the blame for.
Well, that's it. Nothing really positive. Just trying to figure out what to do next.
