Update. I was trying to send a text to my tennis partner. She is also separated from her H, but they are at least in therapy together and he's never said the big D. But her sitch has been for more than a year ago that he moved out so lots of frustration for her. But we were texting because she got home and has family in town, so we couldn't speak. But I sent her text that would have made sense to her but it didn't make sense to my H, which is who I sent it to, not paying attention. He sent back "Huh?" And then called me. We were talking and he was ok at first, then became sort of jerky. In the conversation, I stayed pretty calm but I did tell him, "I'm just a little bit insulted that you actually question whether you can trust me over people you've called crazy. As a matter of fact you once asked me 'have you told me the truth about those two crazies'." Anyways, longer than I wanted the conversation to be- made short, he did say again, "You have the most to lose here, but you just don't understand I'm not coming back to you." I am so past crying. Can someone just get the magic wand out and make my life pretty good? I'm not being greedy here. I don't need perfect, just pretty darn good will do it for me. And I had been on a roll with going a dark as we could with kids. But I screwed up and texted him. I screw up again when he calls and I answer. And I was doing so so well. But again, he said "I'm not coming back to you." Anyone still see some hope here? I think I do....he did call when he got the confusing text. So, very very dark I go for the next few days? Or what?
