Fresh Start

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Well dinner was interesting. When I got there D was asleep she was not feeling well and had a headache. We had a very short turn around time on dinner. I was arriving at 4:45 and needed to be gone by 6 to get to my kickboxing class. h had said he would have the steak(yum) on by the time I got there.

I walked in and there was a notebook on the table with things written in point form - I casually - and I mean really I was just making conversation asked what he was writing out and he scooped up the book and hid it. He then pulled the steak out of the fridge and went out to turn on the bbq. As he is staying at his parents house he could not find anything to light the bbq with. This turned into a catastrophe of him opening and slamming drawers, swearing and basically losing his composure about the stupid f'n house. He has aboslutely no coping skills. At one point he said you might as well leave cause this wont be ready in time. So I went looking for where I put me keys down he comes in the room and says - what are you doing snooping? I turned around and said, "Was your intention in inviting me here to have a pleasant dinner or to make me uncomfortable?" So finally he got the bbq started and made the steak. The dinner was very good but during dinner he started a discussion again about the fact he thought I was looking for his book - and that he had a special page in there (something he is holding over my head) I told him I would not be coming to dinner again.

I got a text later in the evening that said thank you for coming to dinner and I'm sorry I was a jerk.