{{{Amy}}} I'm grr-ing along with Pearl..I always find it amazing how STUPID they seem to act right when you think you feel yourself softening a bit or something LOLOL
Pearl..I could be projecting along with you, cause I'd like to smack your xbf and Amy's hub too LOLOL..and hey..mine for good measure
Tawnya
Me:39 H:40 D18/S12 M20/T21 Bomb 10/11/08 One Two Three Four
Thanks, ladies! I have to say I'm still so mad at him. Over the course of this whole mess, I've been angry probably the least of all. I've been sad. I've been disappointed. I've been afraid. And, I've been angry some, but not as much as I've been the other things. Today, I'm so mad at him!
I've been praying about it, and I have moments that are better. But, I still think if he showed up outside my house, and I could get to the car in time, I'd run him over and then back up and do it again!!!
On a positive note...I had a good day at work. Attended a lunch meeting that was actually more interesting than I thought it would be. It was an organization that I was very active in before the bomb, but have been less active in lately. Several members of the group said they'd missed me, and that made me feel good. Then I got a call this afternoon from a guy who needed us to host an exchange study group member for a day in April. She's in my career field in Milan, Italy. I agreed, and he and I got to talking, and he asked me about joining his professional organization. I thought, "Why not?" So, he's gonna get in touch with me in a few weeks after this exchange is over and get me in touch with the right people. I'm networking.
I also decided that even though it's a long drive early on a Sunday morning, I'm gonna start attending Sunday school at the church were I do Bible study. They have a class that's specifically made up of "single parents up to age 45." That's gonna be me! So, I thought I could probably make some friends there with whom I'd have lots in common.
H has yet to send the agreement. I'm sure it's somehow my fault that he didn't get it done today like he said he would. I know it's guilt or frustration with his situation or something else that's making him so angry...because I've done nothing to him!!! And, I'm so thankful I don't have to carry that around with me from now on.
And, finally, the best news of the day, S7 got a good report at school today!!!!! I was so glad, and he was so proud to tell me. We're gonna be okay...I know we are!
Hope everyone else had a great day...I'm just so thankful tomorrow's Friday. I have tentative plans with two of the few single folks I know (guys I used to work with) to go hear a band tomorrow night. And, my mom and dad are coming on Saturday to help me with yard work. S3's party is next Saturday, and, I'm hoping the weather will be nice and all the kids can play outside!! Can I uninvite H? Technically, he invited himself...so, I guess I could just not mention it again. Maybe he'll forget???
Love you all! Amy
Me 39 H 36 S 7 S 4 T 15 M 12 H out 8/1/08 OW confirmed 8/6/08 D final on 6/12/09...I'm doing good!
{{{Amy}}}} Hooray sounds like you have a fun weekend planned!! Let us konw if your plans for going to hear a band work out
Sorry about your hub..but just say "whatever dude" and move on..MC's right..the anger doesn't help..but smacking him with the car may feel good for a sec
Hugs and love ya!
Tawnya
Me:39 H:40 D18/S12 M20/T21 Bomb 10/11/08 One Two Three Four
I just got done putting the boys to bed and my little man cried after we said our prayers. And, when I asked him what was upsetting him, he said he missed his dad. So, I said, "Well, S3, you get to see Daddy tomorrow after school." And, then he said, "But my daddy would not leave if my room was clean."
My heart just broke into a million pieces. And I tried to explain that he loved them both so much and that he didn't leave because their room was messy and that he just couldn't live with me anymore and that it was horrible that it turned out this way, etc., etc., etc. And every phrase out of my mouth was so inadequate.
Why, why, why did he not see what he was doing to them?
Then, S7 says, "Mom, if you get a boyfriend and you marry him and you divorce him, I don't want to go see him on the weekends." So, I assure him that I won't be getting a boyfriend or getting married for a very long time and that even if I do get married and divorced again (Heaven help us!) that he would not have to visit the other guy on the weekends.
Wow, the places their little minds go.
So, now, I'm less mad and much more sad and disappointed in him. I told him a long time ago that the highest compliment a woman could pay a man was to choose to have him father her children. What happened to the father of my children...the one that was gonna be the best dad ever...the one I was so sure I could trust to always look out for them?
So, I'd say I didn't make it nine days in a row! And, at this point, I don't know that a good one is coming tomorrow either!
Hugs!
Amy
Me 39 H 36 S 7 S 4 T 15 M 12 H out 8/1/08 OW confirmed 8/6/08 D final on 6/12/09...I'm doing good!
