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[Jayce]

Twynna, have you ever seen that scratch pad with the pic of the buzzard at the top? He's saying "Patience my ass. I'm going to go out & kill something" Every once in awhile I find myself thinking, "Patience my ass..." but its not funny anymore.

Got a little more conversation today. H knew about the beginning ED back in 2007. (Aagggghhhh!) Said he'd feel aroused, but no erection forthcoming, so he'd skip it. I asked for clarification (he hates that) and it would happen at night when we went to bed. He'd be in the mood mentally but because the physical wasn't there he wouldn't initiate. Probably why I got turned down so often when I initiated. That's how we'd go 2-3 months with no sex. Why didn't he tell me about it? He had to know it hurt me even before I began initiating more often so our sex life wouldn't disappear altogether.

Next question; even tho he says the book wasn't a help, was whether he read the part where it says as guys get older they need some touching, erections aren't 'automatic' any more. He said, "Yeah, I guess that's part of it". And he knows I like to touch.

Makes me want to wail hearing that he knew what the problem was that long ago & didn't tell me, putting me/us thru hell the past year. And fighting my efforts to figure out the problem & help. And refusing to do a lot of the stuff that helps (exercise, diet, etc etc etc) WTF?!?!?!?! Anyway, now its open for constructive mutual effort I guess. I hate wasted time like that. We could have had this knocked last year. Hiding it from me-what did he think? He'd die before he had to deal w/it? Or I would? Or if he ignored it maybe it or I would go away? I don't understand at all.

Interesting to see where we go from here.
Jayce