Just doing some journaling

H called yesterday to tell me of some charges he made on our account ( I am keeping track of the bills for right now) and he seemed to be in a decent mood.

I called him back literally 15 minutes later to ask one question about a charge he just made that I misunderstood and he was being so RUDE! (not about WHAT i called about, just that I called i guess) I could tell he was driving, and I asked why he was being mean all of a sudden and he completely flipped out on me. Saying things like " i dont want to talk right now I am in a really bad mood, if you keep asking me questions I am about to get really pissed off" So I maintained my composure, said that I hoped his day got better and hung up.

Then I started getting really mad. H never acts this way. He has been a complete mess, I dont even know him anymore and he wont open up to me for nothing. I have already told him he could come to me if he ever needed to talk, he knows it, so I am not going to keep repeating myself.

I sent him a text that said:

I do not deserve to be treated that way by you. So, please dont talk to me anymore unless it involves an apology. The only person responsible for your feelings is you, not me.

I will not take his disrespect anymore like I used to.

Sure enough he called later on that night and apologized...but it wasnt the best apology, It was like "ya im sorry if i was being rude or whatever earlier, i have a question for you about the bank account..."

Luckily I was leaving a concert with my friends when he called so I am glad he heard that my life is still continuing even when he was a complete jerk. I used to let it ruin my whole day

All of this and I still stay in faith that things could turn around.