Thanks newgal. I appreciate your comforting words. The "do what you wanna do" is my H's usual motif and it is so aggravating. I feel a little better now. I'm just telling myself I'm going after someone who God does not meant for me to have. I need to figure my life out though because this whole thing has been going on for way too long and now that H has been gone for so long (5mths) and he shows NO SIGN of wanting to come back I feel like I need to go on with my life. Then today I got to thinking that H is there with his son who he loves so much and to walk away from him now whould be so hard on the boy. And I don't think that he can walk away now and he knows that if he comes back to his wife OW will not want him to see his S and he won't be able to live with that and I just don't think he loves me enough anymore to even make such a choice anyway. It seems like all the signs are telling me to go forward with the D and get on with my life. I'm just so tired of this all.
