Ahhhh, I know. I dream of getting off the crazy train. And really it has been a bit better. I think it's easier on my soul and heart and blood pressure to wonder if he'll contact me for whatever as opposed to what we might fight about. I hope you are right. I hope he is trying to figure it all out and it's driving him crazy. I hope he did get a scare.
Oh and believe me, I'm not flirting. I'm not sure I know how with anyone other than H. I was actually surprised he asked and even more surprised because I don't think ANYONE looks all that great after yoga, and they definitely don't look sexy while doing it! It was just an ego boost and it never occured to me to say anything but thank you, I'm married.
And something else from my very long list of concerns: I think my H has talked to too many people about our relationship and wanting the big D. If so, I think that could be an issue and could stop him from returning to work on things....a losing face kind of thing if he does return. How do I deal with that? Or can I? Is there anything I can do?
My DB coach said one of the things I should be doing right now is making sure he knows the bridge home is not destroyed and to be doing as much as I could to let him come home and save face. But that was before the two large back slides and much of his "We're not getting back together....if it weren't for the economy, this would be done.....I'm not married--haven't been in months."
I am feeling good about GALing. I just got back from lunch with my girls. Doing dinner with them tomorrow with all the kids....dinner and tennis tonight too. Saturday is going to be the big day with me and S doing fun Mommy & Little Guy stuff.
I won't lie though. I sort of hope through out the day to hear from H. But I think now, we might think I'm playing "Who's Tougher and Can Hold Out Longer Before Contacting the Other" but I'm not.
