Divorce looming #6

[K4D]

I was thinking about sending this email. Thoughts?

W,

I have accepted that we will be legally divorced. At this point I just have to think about me and the kids.

Was I weak during this process. Yes, I was. But what did you expect or think the appropriate response should have been from someone so hurt by all of this? Someone who knows this is wrong. Someone who made alot of mistakes that he terribly regrets. Someone that just prays to be forgiven and given a chance to do a 180 so that his family can remain intact. And I'm not getting that. And I am just hoping I do at some point in the future.

Positives. I don't drink anymore. I am trying to learn to manage on my own. I have truly learned what is most important in this life. God and my family and forgiveness and never giving up.

I'm not sure what the definition of strength and growth being used is here.

Staying power takes strength and growth. Working on things takes strength and growth. I know its going to take time for me to prove the rest of the changes I am trying to accomplish. I will stay faithful and be the best dad I can be to my kids and be the best person I can be in general. You will always be able to count on me. I'm going to work my hardest to never let you down again.

I just hope at some point you really seriously consider us again and monitor how I am doing as far as someone you would want to reunite with in time after seeing honest hard true changes.

I still love you and I always will no matter what.

None of us are perfect. But I am striving to be better.

Please try and forgive me and start trying to find ways to see if we can rebuild trust and a relationship again with some time.

I married you for life and I am going to honor that in whatever roll I have to accept that I am put in or allowed to be in.

If this time apart is what needs to happen, then so be it. I just don't want it to last forever.

I do believe the girls would be best served by having both of us in the home and I do believe our marriage really can be wonderful given some changes on both of our ends. I'm working on those.

I always believed you when you said forever and worst case scenerio was separation to work on things. I'm working on those things.

Kevin