Hey LR, Your day wasn't horrible. And neither was mine. I think we just have to admit that just because our days aren't as we would want them to be (our spouses at home with us and our kids, being loving and affectionate, not thinking about the Big D), it doesn't mean our days were bad. Yesterday was the second day in a row of me going Dark. Well as dark as I can go since H has to drop our S off back to me. Today, and the rest of the weekend until Sunday night, there's a good chance I won't see or talk to H. I have S until Monday night. Sunday nights we always eat dinner together at the friends house where I am staying. (That's a long standing tradition, from way before H left.) Tonight, I am having dinner with our friends where I'm staying, then I have a tennis match. Tomorrow, I'm having Mommy Night with my great girlfriends. Saturday, I'm going to take S to a few museums since I think he's old enough to appreciate these things now. Pizza for dinner. And on Sunday.....not sure what we'll do, but I'm just trying to stay busy busy busy. When I have seen H for the few minutes we exchange S, he's been nice and fine. I've been cordial too. He makes a little bit of physical contact, like a squeeze on the arm/elbow. I'm just not sure what I should be looking for? Anyone have any ideas what are the sign, good or bad that I should be looking for? Oh, and a guy in my yoga class asked me for my number!!! I was so shocked and frankly impressed that my old mommy butt could still get someone to ask for my number. I told him I was married and he apologized, mentioned that he had looked for a ring during the last three weeks and didn't see one. I told him I don't wear it to work out. He apologized again and I said "don't apologize, you just made my day!"
