((((guys)))))

If only a rota were possible- there's definitely insufficient interest for me to have one of those, but I do like the idea!

naej- yes, I'm filing adultery, or I would if I could. H still hasn't passed on the aubergine information, even though we had dinner yesterday evening and he had ample opportunity. Interesting meal actually- H is (FINALLY!) standing up to his mother, who is currently trying to emotionally blackmail him into going home for the third weekend in a row (this involves a 7 hour round trip). You could have knocked me over with a feather when he told me about it. I'm really pleased for him (and it's not before time too).

mishka- (((hugs))) to you too Sweetie!

Handsome- I think the swimming is easier if you coat yourself in Vaseline. That could also be fun! I feel......happy and peaceful these days. I'm really enjoying the busy-ness of my life, the intellectual games and the singing. Sometimes it's quiet at home, and I'd feel like I'd love to share my life with the right person, but I only feel that sometimes and I think that's an OK thing. Sometimes when I see H (like yesterday) and he's "normal" I sigh for the lives that could have been, but I don't regret anything about how I've behaved, and I feel like I gave it my best shot. I've put my love for H in a box and put the lid on to compartmentalise it; it helps me a lot that we're friends and he's going to still be a part of my life. Am I making sense? And yes, lack of verbal swordplay is a big problem for me!

Speaking of which..... Sunshine K- My BFF agreed with you on the master of verbal swordplay needing to spend time with me outside work so she invited him to join us at a ball next Saturday and he's going to come along. It's not a date, but I think it qualifies as an out of work occassion? We'll see what happens in any case. There's a free bar so he said he thought we should get plastered. And his only other comment was 'Am I invited because they think we're married/together? It's not a problem, I'm just curious". I'm a bit nervous about it, but I guess it can't be any weirder that the last ball we went to ;\)

((((all)))) I'll check up on you over the next couple of days.

Smiling L. xx