The Flames are Still Rising....

[blindsided1]

Sugar - thank you. I have not had the opportunity to read your sitch. But, I do think I may have grazed through it. It's nice to hear from someone who has been down this road. Not that I wish anyone to have to go down it. This has been the worst experience of my life, to date. But, also the best because I have our daughter. She's 9 months old today. H son was born yesterday. Wonder how H is going to explain that to our daughter once she figures something doesn't fit right. But, that's a long way off.

I try to remind myself that he is fake. His life is a fraud as is his love and feelings. I do believe that he feels things, just not with any substance or sustainability. He IS most definitely a litte boy playing at being a man and failing miserable, I believe.

I went to have dinner with his parents tonight. They were perfect. Spent the whole time playing with K and loving us, just the same as always. They didn't mention H or OW or the new baby. I appreciated that. I know they love us. I hope that they will always be there for both of us and care for both of us.

I hate being the life he threw away. But, I'm trying to deal with it. I need to get a grasp before K is old enough to be affected by it. Only then, can I help her get through it.