Happy Birthday, Gyps! Time is a wonderful thing. It will get easier. I think about a line you once posted "the very word divorce terrified me".
I can remember identifying so much with that line. The thought of losing my life as I knew it, almost caused me to......well.....lose my life at my own hand. I WAS DEVASTATED!!!!! It was terrifying. I can remember being so anxiety ridden that I couldn't sit in my house, and on one occassion thought I was going to physically die during a meeting at school. I couldn't stay in the room for more than 10 minutes at a time, and sweat was pouring down my face.
Well, fast forward three years. Although it's sad that she decided to "pull the chute" on the marriage, and make the kids have a broken family, I have nothing but contempt and pity for her. This has been going on for nearly 4 years, and to quote one of Donna's lines "let go or be dragged". I've got the emotional "road rash" to prove I was dragged too far.
You are a wonderful person. As Gym Lady has said about her XH and my STBXW "Good things cannot continue to happen to bad people". Her husband made 3.5 million a year at the peak of his career. He now has to drive a leased mini-Cooper because of his bad financial sense, and is on the brink of a third divorce (he was married before he married Gym Lady).
Divorce is a HORRIBLE thing in most cases. The utter betrayal by the person you thought you were closest to is beyond devastating.
I once read that more than 75% of men over the age of 50 who are divorced remarry. I NEVER, EVER thought I would find anyone, but lo and behold, I did, and when I LEAST expected it.
Continue to be your positive self. Your ex (Conan the "WARRIOR" by the way, I know REAL warriors) is a bully. There's a difference. REMEMBER: GOOD THINGS CAN'T CONTINUE TO HAPPEN TO BAD PEOPLE. You, on the other hand are a sweetheart, and good things will come your way
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I've read and reread your post and can't thank you enough for taking the time to reply.
Although I cringe whenever it comes to making judgments about whether or not good can happen in his life, I appreciate what you shared. It brought a hug to my heart.
