Man, W is still pulling me along on this roller coaster and I guess that I am willing to ride it. I know not too, but I can't seem to stop it to get off. Today she is in a bad mood. Today went from bad to worse. I am miserable today. I realized that I forgot to take my celexa this morning, not sure if that has to do with my mood or not. Anyway, I texted W to see if I could take her and the kids out to dinner tomorrow night for her birthday. She sent back "um, yeah i guess". I responded upbeat and said good, I will plan it. Later she called and asked if I just wanted to do it tonight and I already had plans so I said no tomorrow would be better. I then asked if she already had plans tomorrow and said no, but I don't have to take her as she doesn't care either way. This pissed me off, but I didn't act like it and just said that we didn't have to go if she didn't want to. Then told her I would talk to her later about it and said bye. I then texted her and said that I was sorry, but just trying to do something nice for her birthday but that she didn't sound too thrilled about it. She responded saying again that it doesn't matter to her if we go or not, she wouldn't be mad if we didn't but would love to go.
I am going to take it at face value and plan the evening tomorrow night with her and the kids. I just wish she would figure this out and quit being so up and down. This is killing me. I need to regroup and just go to bed and end this day!!!!!
