Well I am feeling much better today..totally accepting the fate of the marriage.
Yesterday was not so good... I had a few irish beers and texted quite a few not so nice things to her....just hoping to make her as miserable as she has me.
I know..not good..but.. sometimes when I get mad...out all the anger comes...
Ive had my say..no more needed..she is a skank.
He is staying with her hoping to have her take him back..thats why..he has "feelings for her"
I totally do not plan on any type of dating. My emotions are too raw and I would probably fall for the first person to treat me with any respect.
Goal is to do things for me and the kids. I have no intention of trying to reconsile. He doesnt want it. Period.
In my heart, I still feel he is sick and if he could have given up the affair and focused on us it would work. I love him that much.
