First off, thank you again. You are keeping me grounded.
Yes, it is a fact we have a huge problem with communication, and you have summed it up very accurately. Short of counseling, I don't know how to fix it! I try, I really do. Believe it or not, I have gotten lots better. But yes, the trust thing is a huge problem for me, and yes, I assume the worst. And, he doesn't answer, yea,neigh,or otherwise, so I then assume that the words I have supplied are the right ones.
OK, so my last text to him was: As long as you are in a relationship I cannot be your friend.
So...let's say that was a mistake. How do I undo it? Do I wait to hear from him? This is such a basic question...I feel dumb for asking it. But, I continually mess things up, so I feel it is best to now ask first.
Why did I go dark? I was hurt. Really, really hurt. I felt as if he was asking me to do for him (be there as a friend) while he did whatever he wanted to do. I hope that I would feel differently if things were not the way they have been (him leading me to belive that he was working on opening up to me and communicating better). It killed me to learn that he was still lying.
