You give very good advice. Thank you. I do know that I will feel better once I have completely detached. Really, as I've said before if it were just her and me this would have been done and decided long ago. I mainly have been fighting for the stability of my kids. The stability of keeping the only family they have ever known intact. I really don't want the marriage that I have had in the past few years, it was one of suspicion. However there was a marriage that we once had that was satisfying and happy. We could have it again IF we both wanted it. She just chooses not to now.
Today has been a less than happy day - it is our 14th Wedding Anniversary. No celebration this year, no cards this year, no nothing - just an empty sadness. I know this too shall pass, I just dread the journey.
The shiatsu sounds interesting. You'll have to tell me more.
