I've Come Full Circle 25: All grown up

[kat727]

Ok, now you have me about ready to cry. I think the only way I have made it this far is by breaking it down though I am a big picture sort of person. I also who have great parents who have been supportive but I have tried not to lean too much on them. I have kept alot of it close to the vest. I didn't even tell them that he moved out or was having an A until he filed a year ago December.

I didn't want them to think the worst of him in case it did all work out for the family. Instead they were shocked that the kids kept it in so well. My parents haven't spoken badly about him except once when my Dad was so upset about the B and ex still owing me back alimony.

But I do feel better about day to day stuff. I don't talk to ex anymore than I absolutely have to. The kids talk with me alot. S16 said all of his friends adored me and thought I was doing a good job. I know they aren't parents but they can see me trying. It meant a lot to hear that.

Thanks for everything you said. All of our married life I never tried to speak badly about him and it is hard, even now, to take down all the protective barriers. But really he doesn't deserve them, they will be coming down.

kat