I don't think you're neurotic. I feel like I'm a bit and definitely have a some thing I could be working on, but I don't think either of us neurotic. (But let me know if you get a professional to confirm that.:) That's good advice on how to control it. I just have such a hard time with that. It's the only cause of my back slides. He does or says something that makes me nuts and then I push or even sometimes, I shove. And even AS I AM DOING IT, I remember all that I've learned here and from DR and my therapist and I do it anyways. I just really need to calm down and practice patience, self control and I need to pamper me as much as possible. This is H's last night for the rest of the week with S. I wonder if he is going to attempt to see S tomorrow after his golf league. Friday night, I've made plans with some other mommies. And Saturday and Sunday, I haven't figured out what I'll be doing, but H has a his tournament this weekend and has to work Saturday night too. So I can go dark that day too. Sunday nights we all have dinner together at the place where I'm staying. The friends I'm staying with are great great cooks and we've been going there for Sunday night dinner since before the you know what hit the fan. So we continue to do that since everyone involved does enjoy it. So if I don't see H tomorrow, I won't see him again until Sunday. I'll see him tonight when he drops S off. But so far, so good on going as dark as I can with our S between us.
